Learning the hard way

Make sure you listen to other people it's very easy to be wrapped up in your own little world and think you are ok. I find what the mind says you can do and what the body allows you to do are two completely different things.

I wanted to see me daughter who I haven't seen for four weeks and just take her to the cinema and watch a film. Against the advice of everyone else I was going to drive the hour journey to pick her up. After a severe talking to from my wife, my mother-in-law and my best friend I decided this wasn't a good idea. The drugs I am taking (MST) a form of morphine mean I cannot drive.

I was taken to my daughters house by a friend and the journey was horrendous. I felt sick but it was a pleasure to see my daughter. We went to the pictures, a haven of germs I shouldn't have been among waiting to polax my immune system. but I had to do it, I miss her, and my son, so much.

I sat through the film enduring the deafening noises. St. Trinians felt like a couple of hours of nuclear warfare. I don't even know what the film consisted of at all. We were picked up again and took her home. When I got home all I could do was go to bed. I feel like I'm living in a vacuum its so difficult to communicate.

A very valuable lesson was learned last night I can only do what my body says I can do.