A Big Thank You

I feel I have got a lot of thank yous to do so I thought I would use today's entry to do this.

I spend a lot of time, not feeling sorry for myself, but wrapped up in my own little world which I hope most of you will understand. Today has been a day when I realise people really do care and how much people do for me.

My radiotherapy today was followed up by a consultation with a specialist it was just to ask I felt the treatment was going and to see if there were any problems I may be having. Whilst waiting with the many other cancer sufferers in the clinic, my usual consultant, Dr Haba, rushed through the corridor obviously on his way elsewhere, but he stopped when he saw me and took the time to sit down with me and ask me how I was. He wasn't just passing the niceties of the day he was genuinely concerned with the week I had had and how I was now feeling. He made me feel like he was really my friend not just one of the many patients on his list.

Also today I saw one of the nurses from D9. She is leaving unfortunately and when I left the ward on Tuesday she wasn't around to say goodbye to. She wasn't in uniform and just happened to be in the coffee shop where we were having a cup of tea after the treatment. She called out to me and gave me a huge hug and told me how sad she had been that she didn't get to say goodbye and thought she would never see me again. I felt relieved that I got to say goodbye to her and wished her the best of luck. She is a bloody good nurse.

Through the course of today I have had dealing with my solicitor, over other matters, who also has a genuine concern for me and the predicament I find myself in. She is always empathetic and kind.

All these professionals who would in any other case be just that, professional, but due to what is happening to me they have all gone one step further and me feel that I matter.

Then there are the other people in my life who were there before I was ill but have made it known how much they care and want me to get better. Permanently looking at ways to cheer me up and help me get better.

Today I started the day with a phone call from my sister Diana asking how we were and sending her good wishes, then my mother in law Dianne with her usual good luck call, which was sadly cut short due to the fact we were late leaving (sorry) then on the way to the hospital we spoke to Joan who works for Susan who ended the conversation with her good wishes, as always, and tears because we thanked her for holding Susan's business together (along with all the other members of staff) then when we got to the hospital, Lindsay gave her daily check in call, again cut short as we were trying to park. After that came the several calls with Andrew, also holding Susan's business together. Then a visit from Dianne with more help.

This is just today this is without the food parcels, daffodils and countless cups of tea from our neighbours John and Jane, countless phone calls from other friends, colleagues and family, e mails from my brothers, and all the messages on the blog.

Today ended on a high when my best mate, Andrew Bingham, pulled another surprise out of the bag, he's gone to all the trouble of getting the Tottenham Hotspur players to sign a shirt for me which he bought round for me tonight. I can't put into words how I appreciate all of the hard work Andrew and his lovely family have put in for me. His friendship is very valued he is somebody I can really rely on through good times and bad. Thank you Andrew.

Last but not least Susan, from the first part of waking up in the morning right through the day, which sometimes can be very long and arduous, always supports me and encourages me and just shows me so much love. I'm so lucky to have her in my life, she is a very wonderful human being. I love you always.

This may sound very corny to other people but the idea of the blog is to let people know how I am physically and mentally and I hope that people can appreciate sometimes I just want to thank people because the rest of the time I'm just a moody arse.