A Better Day than I Thought

Another day spent in the oncology dept at Addenbrookes Hospital. More scans, bloods, x rays etc but I wont bore you with those details. I'll have to go for a vein transplant soon as they keep colapsing. Saw Dr Haba today and he has finally decided the way forward is a 2 and a half week course of Radiotherapy. The chemo seems to have slowed the tumour growth down but not stopped it and hasn't worked as much as he would have liked so he thinks radiotherapy will be the hard hit it needs.

The last few days have been difficult. I have been feeling very sick although I am taking handfuls of anti sickness tablets but it could be due to the four courses of antibiotics I have been taking every day for a week. The acute tiredness is still a problem and even writing this is a struggle as my brain just cannot cope sometimes.

Its very important I keep myself in peak physical condition this week as this Sunday is the big day. My beloved Spurs are on the verge of great things again I can't wait to see my mate Bob stuck with all the Spurs supporters wearing a Chelsea shirt at least I can console myself that if Spurs do loose he'll get a good kicking (joke).

I desparately want to go to the game but it is all in the lap of the Gods and just pray I can stay well enough to make it.

My sense of humour seems to have escaped me this week. Susan and I are just so tired too tired to joke and laugh without effort. Simple things make us laugh like the amount of effort it takes for me to have a pooh and the Tesco employee who rammed my car with a trolly trying to get between my car and hers through a gap an ant would have struggled to get through. When challanged had total amnesia as to the fact she had done it and if it wasn't for the fact I have the lung capacity of a newt I would have got out of the car and slapped her. Then I wonder why we run out of energy to laugh.

I want to thank my dear Susan because she takes time off work, drives me everywhere and never complains and only gets upset when she thinks I can't see her.

To all those people who have offered their help I wondered if I might now call those offers in. The Radiotherapy is every day for 2 and a half weeks excluding weekends but only lasts for a few minutes each time. I wondered if anyone would have the spare time during the week to give me a lift to Addenbrookes and home. My car is available to use from here and on sunny days we can put the roof down! Susan can't take time out every day and nor can her mum and apart from them I don't have anyone else to take me. The hospital transport is very hit and miss and takes several patients at a time and I just can't stay awake long enough to be able to use it.

I thought maybe I could work out a system for those willing and able and maybe each person may only have to do one trip in the two weeks. We don't know the dates or times yet but let me know if you can help me and we can work something out. I hope you don't think we are being cheeky but as everyone has been so helpful and offered so much help we thought we could ask.

I feel I have had a better day today than I thought I was going to which makes me happy.