Ghost writer again today. As you can imagine from the title today it is really starting to get very very hard. After the initial euphoria of realising he hadn't actually died the adrenaline stopped and Vic came down with a bang.
The last two days have been the hardest so far both mentally and physically. Vic is extremely down and so incredibly tired I just can't put it into words. Since his kidneys failed and joined back in again he has been going to the toilet every 20 minutes or so, day and night, so as you can imagine he has had no quality sleep for a week. Fortunately the output has slowed down today and he has had a little more rest but he is grumpy, tired, fed up and sad. He is far too sick and tired to even tell me what he wants to say today which is often how we do this. I'm sitting beside him in hospital writing this but there is no input from him into it today.
Reading the comments has had us both in tears, hearing from all those people that Vic used to talk about over tea at night after he'd visited them during the day. It is heartbreaking how quickly our lives have changed. Its good to know how many people are thinking of him though.
He's going to miss the SAIF weekend so much, except for paying for the Indian!!, missing out on things like that is one of the things that upsets him. If anyone reading this is going could you perhaps pass on to everyone our sincere thanks to all those who have sent their wishes to Vic, it really does help, perhaps you could also pass on to such a captive audience, the importance of blood donation for use in cancer treatments. In this 3 bedded ward alone 6 pints of blood have been used in 5 days. That's without what has been used in the chemo unit and the other beds on this ward, A & E, and during operations.
Hopefully the next entry on this blog will tell you he's feeling much better and maybe due to come home. They hope to start the Radiotherapy on Monday so lets hope they do and we start to see some results.
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Well done you, always knew you were a fighter and Saturday night proved it. Get that treatment started next week, get well then you can come out in my new red rocket, it will make your hair curl ha. Missing you raiding the fridge at work, food actually goes off!! Work the same except everyone has the dreaded bug, courtesy of Bob, always was one who liked to share things. Thinking of you and Susan Love as always to you both - Lyn xx
Dear Vic
We are all thinking of you and rooting for you. We all miss your presence at the SAIF AGM & Banquet and having trouble finding anyone to pay for the Indian!! What a bugger! This means it's Bangers & Mash tonight. Your request to stress the importance of blood donations will be highlighted throughout this weekend.
We all hope your Radiotherapy treatment on Monday goes well.
With love and best wishes, from all your friends at SAIF.
Hi Vic,
We heard about you from the guys at St. Clare's and i'd like to pass on a message on behalf of all of the players, coaches and staff at Spurs to stay strong and positive.
Really good to read how much you enjoyed the Cup Final, we hope you get a chance to follow the game on Sunday, i'm sure you'll be cheering us on!
Best Wishes,
Everyone at Tottenham Hotspur Football Club.
Hi Vic and Sue
Blimey its a desperate way to avoid paying for an Indian, you are really going through it now. Best of luck with the radiotherapy.
Take care both of you.
Jane x
dont know what to say after reading your latest update apart from that we are all thinking and praying for you both thought bob or dad would pay for the indian for you but you know how tight they are ! take care will pass on the blog to dad love sally bills daughter xx
Keep fighting Vic, there is no way lovely people like you deserve this. A big 'cyberspace' hug comes your way.
I've just seen the THFC posting - wow!
Jane Parker x
Hello Vic
Read this entry just before going to Church and so said Mass with your intention. Susan emailed me during the week. I've never heard of the prospect of me visiting someone being used as a threat before - but hey if it works - I'm happy to take it on the chin! You are very much in my thoughts and prayers and clearly surrounded by the love and support of so many people - take heart and have courage. Andrew.
Hello Vic and Auntie Susan
I am a regular reader of your blog but not such a regular comment leaver as english was never my thing and the thought of hundreds of people reading what Im writing makes it hard for me to spell ti !!!
There is nothing we can say or do to make any of what you are both going through any easier so all we can do is send our love and best wishes,
Keep fighting
Lots of love Dee & Billy
Hi Vic and Sue,
Got back from the exhibition in Cardiff last night - not the same when you are on the stand on your own plus no drinking partner! Lots of best wishes sent from the other exhibitors - the guys from Auden and SAIFinsure, Simon Oakes, Louis Wilcox, Julian Atkinson and Matthew, Kevin and Mary from Colourful Coffins. Lost count of the number of people coming up to me and asking after you - you are in the thoughts and prayers of so many people.
Very best wishes to you both,
Andrew
Hi Vic, we all missed you so much this weekend it just wasn't the same without you. Jim and I just got home, beating the bad weather by about 30 minutes - how lucky was that?
The Saif weekend was as usual, a little crazy, very boozy and a serious absence of anyone willing to pay the bill at the indian. Get well soon love, we're all thinking about you and you get a little prayer from me each night.
Chris Parker
uncle vic
what can i say.. it is so hard for me not to burst into tears when reading this, which only makes my admiration for both of you all the stronger for how you are both coping - keep going, i have faith in you and know you can do it - it is also lovely to read how much you are both loved - it is very humbling take care you know where i am x x
Hi Victor,
What a week hey pal, still reading your blog and thinking about you and sue.
I thought wow !!!! when i read the message from Spurs, who next Glen Hoddle ?
I write this message after spurs are the third team to beat the mighty Irons 4 - 0, so you heard it hear first, i officialy wash my hands of them.
Any way keep your pecker up and keep on strong, youve got alot of fans willing you on, (i am also in need of a free indian)
Loads of love
Jimbo and family.
Hello Vic,
It was really good to see you today and see you smiling, laughing and moaning. I think you and Susan are both doing amazing. Hope the radiotherapy goes well tomorrow everyone is rooting for you and you are constantly in our thoughts. Oliver has put a Spurs cup winners poster up on his wall and says he doesn't care if his gooner cousins take the mick out of him because its Vic's team.
All our love
Andrew and family
Hi Vic
I spoke to Susan today as we only just heard. She told me about about the blog well done you really are a fighter. We are both thinking of you and will keep in touch. Sending you our best wishes Jo and Louise xx
Hi Vic,
Back to work today after a long and busy SAIF weekend and, reiteraing Andrews comments, so very many people asking after you, too many to list, suffice to say you are in everyones thoughts and prayers. Andrew did his best, but you were so missed.
Have to tell you, Chas wasn't kidding, we actually had Bangers 'n' Mash on Friday night..........Cheapskate.
Hoping the Radiotheray does the trick and so looking forward to welcoming you at the next SAIF do. God bless Linda
Hiya Vic and Suz,
Just wanted to say I'm glad you pulled through last weekend and seem to be slightly better. So your new best friend is a catheter? Hmmm I'm starting to worry about this bloke my sister married...
Wish there was anything I could do to help. If prayers help - you should be up and about by tomorrow!
There are so many people thinking of you. Kym, Judy,Crista,Joan and all their respective families and everyone I work with asks about you both daily.
We all love you. Wendybrit1
hi both of you just to say we think of you both all the time and this comes with all our love and prayers we just know all will be well eventually just keep hanging in there we love you to bits you are so special such a team made for each other xxxxxxxxx the crumblies c and m
hi both of you just to say we think of you both all the time and this comes with all our love and prayers we just know all will be well eventually just keep hanging in there we love you to bits you are so special such a team made for each other xxxxxxxxx the crumblies c and m
Hi Vic
You may remember me you may not? I'm Karen Shurety - Linda Spittle's sister, well when my sister told me that you have cancer I was to say the least really shocked. Not really sure what to say but just felt compelled to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Some years ago you may remember that I used to kock about with Vanessa Wright who I know you were friends with, I saw Vanessa's Mum in town a couple of weeks ago and sked her to let Vannessa know as I know she was really fond of you all those years ago. Again not don't really know why I felt so compelled to write I'm guessing if I'm honest its because your only two years older than me and I remember you from school, and I do remember you as always being a friendly, well rounded guy, and Vanessa(Nelly) did always have good things to say about you!
I hope I haven't offended you by writing to you on your Blogg. Just wanted to let you know that even people that you don't have contact with are thinking of you.
Karen
Hi Vic
You may remember me you may not? I'm Karen Shurety - Linda Spittle's sister, well when my sister told me that you have cancer I was to say the least really shocked. Not really sure what to say but just felt compelled to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Some years ago you may remember that I used to kock about with Vanessa Wright who I know you were friends with, I saw Vanessa's Mum in town a couple of weeks ago and sked her to let Vannessa know as I know she was really fond of you all those years ago. Again not don't really know why I felt so compelled to write I'm guessing if I'm honest its because your only two years older than me and I remember you from school, and I do remember you as always being a friendly, well rounded guy, and Vanessa(Nelly) did always have good things to say about you!
I hope I haven't offended you by writing to you on your Blogg. Just wanted to let you know that even people that you don't have contact with are thinking of you.
Karen
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